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Welcome to my website! This site is primarily to show off stuff I do and stuff about me; Bryan Sheehan. Also it is more of an online Blog or Journal for anyone who cares for a read. Some (if not all) of my fanfictions and short stories are also on this site. It ain't much, but please enjoy!
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6/24/22 - So another 2 years later... So... what do I say? So unlike the last update in 2020, there was many, MANY changes in my life. For the sake of sanity, lemme go in chronological order.
So as we all know; the COVID-19 Pandemic happened, and is still technically in effect. However, as we know; in 2020 it was worse. Some stimulus bills were passed between '20-'21. Those helped me out financially. With one of the stimy's, I decided to get a cheap HDMI Capture device (actually I had gotten 2 at the time) cuz I wanted to try my hand at doing Video Game Reviews, ala SomeCallMeJohnny, The Completionist, KingK, That Trav Guy, ect. Well, sad to say; even 2 years later I have barely gotten any scripts for those reviews done.
However, I did start up a Let's Play channel called Blargaria Gaming, however unlike last time I tried this 6 years ago; I have friends along for the ride. Monica, Charles, Brittany, Kuro, and Boop. We've got 16 games up on the channel already, and we got some more already done and recorded in our backlog, waiting to be edited and uploaded. At the time of writing; we currently have Legend of Zelda Twilight Princess, Tales of Symphonia, and Doom 3 going (we finished recording Doom 3 already, the game going up after it is Zelda 2 Redux; a rom hack)
Admitibly we barely have any subscribers, and we barely get any views. But at this point, I'm just happy having a hobby I've been doing consistently for almost 2 years. It's fun. There was drama within the first 5 or so months cuz it originally started out as just me, Charles and Monica, and we tried adding people; I won't mention their names. But half of the people that got involved caused fights off screen (and in one case; on screen, but we ditched that entire playthrough due to the drama) But for the past year it's been fun.
Oh, so that's brings up that last year in 2021, some of my online friends whom I had eluded to in the 2018 post came to visit me in July. Alberto, his wife Gee, and our friend Tina. They spent about 4-5 days with me. We camped out in my backyard in a huge tent. We went to Boston and walked the Freedom Trail, walked around Salem, MA, went and played Mini-Golf and Laser Tag, introduced them to Star Trek, walked in the local woods, and took dozens of pictures. It was a lot of fun and I still fondly look back upon it.
Oh and around that time; I gave up my addiction to Soda!
Now comes the bad: so on December 5th, 2020 my remaining Grandparent (my dad's mom) passed away. And then exactly one year later on December 5th, 2021 at 8:30pm my Mom; Cathy Sheehan, passed away from brain failure which was caused by a heart attack about 6 days earlier which caused her heart to stop. I don't recall what was the exact cause for the heart attack; in retrospect I suspect it was her COPD cuz she complained about having trouble breathing. She died in the same hospital as my father did in August of 2010. I absolutely refuse to go to that hospital ever again in my life. The difference here is that I was there in the moment when my Mom passed.
It's... a mental image I will never forget. It haunts me as I write this. The light leaving her eyes, her hands tightening like what little remained of her brain was trying to hold on...
*sigh*
I've had 6, going on 7 months since then. My uncle Mike moved in the week of Christmas along with his dog; Peanut who's 12 years old; so he's an old doggo. In addition, I've gotten a new cat; Pharaoh. He's currently 10 months old. Oh, we got another lizard this time last year we named Tasha. And to top it off, in 2 weeks on [hopefully] July 5th, I'll be getting good ol' Butch back! He's currently 12 years old, going on 13 - slightly older than Peanut. Of course we still have Lenny too. Here's an album I made on Facebook of photos of Pharaoh, Peanut, Lenny, Tasha and eventually; Old Butch. I want to do another album soon of the old pictures I have of Butch, Kaden, Tigger and Lenny.
Oh damn! How can I forget! So back in January in a mix of birthday present/to boost my mood from my mom's recent death; the before mentioned Monica and Charles came to visit me for a few days. Here's an album of their visit! (Also a friend I will refer to Mei also came to visit) Charles loved it here so much that in a few months he plans to move up here. He'll possibly be crashing at my place for a while till he gets his own place.
So somewhat on the topic of my mom's death; I've had close to 7 months to ponder upon it. I miss her; I really do. But I'm not going to lie; I feel liberated. Free. Like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Like I can finally be my own man. We're still going through changing the house and such legally to be put in my name. But me, Mike and Bob have already very much changed my house into being MY HOUSE. I've known this for the past few months, but it sank into me again while looking around my room which I recently re-arranged to accomidate a new AC Unit I bought a few weeks ago. Like other times I've changed my room around; it was for a practical reason or just for a bit of a change. But this change feels fresh. Maybe it's cut of the new furniture and stuff I've bought since then.
It geniunely feels like a new era for me. A good one. One I've needed for a long while now because the last few years I honestly felt trapped in a cage that was my own home. I wasn't entirely happy. I would often lie to myself and others saying that I was "content" with my life. But honestly; I wasn't. A part of me wanted to escape. But with my mom's death; being free from family obligations, being free to do things my way; I honestly feel happier than I was only 8 months ago before my Mom died. I no longer feel tied down by the past. I no longer want to run from this house.
I said it before and I'll say it again:
I feel free.
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4/29/20 - Holy cow almost 2 years on the dot since my last post here!
So... nothing new has been going on. The last person I was with at the time of the last post was pretty cool. Didn't work out tho. Just fell out of it. Same with my most recent relationship. Kinda weird I have nothing really to say besides my relationship status here. Life is pretty dull otherwise. I got a Switch and PS4 now. I've had the PS4 for a few years now. Lately I've been playing Link's Awakening Remake and loving it.
Work is getting swamped because of the Coronavirus. I could use a vacation lol
Oh and BTW to my friends who happen to be reading this; thank you for being there for me. Love you! <3 Leave a comment!
So... nothing new has been going on. The last person I was with at the time of the last post was pretty cool. Didn't work out tho. Just fell out of it. Same with my most recent relationship. Kinda weird I have nothing really to say besides my relationship status here. Life is pretty dull otherwise. I got a Switch and PS4 now. I've had the PS4 for a few years now. Lately I've been playing Link's Awakening Remake and loving it.
Work is getting swamped because of the Coronavirus. I could use a vacation lol
Oh and BTW to my friends who happen to be reading this; thank you for being there for me. Love you! <3 Leave a comment!
4/25/18 - 2 more years of nothin'What can I say? I had plans for this site but never got around to em. I figure if anything; this site is my blog or online journal I rarely update that no one cares about. Why do I keep it around? Dunno. Maybe because I can and it's mine.
So let's recap on the past 2 years, shall we? Looking back at my last "update", I had mentioned worldofanime.com and a special friend. Well that special friend was my second girlfriend. And I use "girlfriend" loosely since she refused to make things official. Boy, did I think Shayna was bad... OOOOH BOY! This slut was WORSE! Kristen was her name, better known as "Puppy" on Worldofanime. She near cosntantly degraded me, insulted me, treated me like a retard, when all I would do is whatever I could to make her happy even at my expense. Shayna was a bitch but she never degraded me! Hell, Shayna comforted me one time when I contemplated suicide for a reason I won't go into. Kristen constantly gave me shit whenever I did things for myself or my other friends. When me, my Mom and best friend Ralph were on a 3 day vacation in New Hampshire at a small resort, me and Ralph one night had some drinks. We didn't get drunk since we had just eaten a large meal so the alcohol didn't affect us. But the fact I was spending time with my friend and mother... oooh Kristen couldn't have that. So became the Girlfriend of some fuckboi just to spit in my face. Oh but I couldn't be too focused on her because I was too clingy. I dealt with this constant bullshit and drama from around the time of St. Patrick's Day of 2016 till sometime in August when I just got sick of her shit, and plus I had feelings for an old friend of mine (won't say who) and I decided I was gonna break up with Kristen, and then ask my friend if she'd go out with me.That actually turned out well but the relationship with my friend only lasted a month until I got "brother-zoned". A pit far worse than the "friend-zone". No escaping that pit. I'm still friends with her and we still hang out, so no worries there.
2017 was thankfully not filled with drama. Heck the only time there was ANY didn't involve me very much. Between the very end of 2016 (late November) to the first quarter of 2017 (around this time) I had made several new friends who are all a great bunch of weird but well-meaning people (hi guys if you happen to see this!)Basically any drama that did occur only involved my new group of friends. I was more or less, along for the ride, giving my advice and suggestions, and knowing when to say "fuck this, I'm out" when I noticed certain people showed the same signs I have seen before throughout early 2014 to late 2016. I had a few crushes throughout this past year and a half but nothing became of any of em. I am talking to someone new who seems almost pretty cool though.
So now that my social life updates are over, let's get to any personal projects and work. I still have my job at Market Basket. I'm pretty well respected there. Making more hours and more money now, if however my rent got hiked up though due to some financial issues. For fanfictions, I have decided to just dump several of them just so I focus on 2 or so. I may update the list here to reflect that. So basically, not much of anything new.
Dawn 3PM of 5/21/11. 2 Hours and 45 Minutes remain:
5/21/11 - Today supposedly "The End of The World" so express my opinion I'm playing an appropriate song on the site for today and again December 21st 2012. Oh and have a nice day to end all days. :)
5/6/11 - Finally finished Chapter 9 of DEHR. Go friggin read it. Also upped the text font a bit so it was a little more readable (so far this page and the DEHR Chapters). Haven't put it into effect all-over the site so stay tuned.
2/26/11 - Since today would have been my father's 58th birthday I made and uploaded a video in his honor. Here's the video.
2/24/11 - Added a few more of my music videos to the appropriate section with the new player. These videos are "FMA - You Know My Name" and "Suddenly".
1/4/2011 - HAPPY NEW YEAR! Sorry for not completing the Christmas Playlist. As you can see though I am currently restoring the site to its regular look.
12/13/10 - Here's our thirteenth Track: "The Twelve Pains of Christmas" (12 more days to go till Christmas!)
12/12/10 - Here's our twelfth Track: "Wonderful Christmas Time" Paul McCartney
12/11/10 - Here's our eleventh Track: "The First Noel" by Mannheim Steamroller
12/10/10 - Here's our tenth Track: "Jingle Bell Rock" by Bobby Helms
12/9/10 - Here's our ninth Track: "Chanukah" by Adam Sandler
12/7/10 - Here's seventh Track: "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen" by Mannheim Steamroller
12/6/10 - Here's our sixth Track: "White Christmas" by Bing Crosby
12/5/10 - Here's our fifth Track: "A Mad Russian's Christmas" by the Trans Siberian Orchestra
12/4/10 - Here's our fourth Track: "Shopping Around For A Christmas Tree" from WROR. A good humorous song for the right time, since people should be looking for their xmas trees by now.
12/3/10 - Here's our third Track: "Let it Snow" by Harry Connick Jr.
12/2/10 - Here's our second Track: "Wizards In Winter" by the Trans Siberian Orchestra.
12/1/10 - Well it's December and Christmas is 24 days away. So over the course of time I'm going to attempt make a sort of "christmas-like" feeling to the site, complete with a falling snow effect (your seeing it now)and eventually Christmas music.
11/11/10 - Well happy Veteran's Day, it's the uh... 92nd anniveristy of the "Treaty of Versailles" which marked the end of the First World War... and the starting gear of the Second World War...
11/9/10 - Crud loads of updates today. Added sections for Stories "Cold As Metal" (CAM) and "Megaman Legends" (MML) plus adding comment systems on them and a Chapter each. Not just that also added the Short Stories and Downloads sections. I'm very close to saying a final "farewell" to my old site. A few odds and ends, plus the "Past Stages" section are the only things left.
11/3/10 - Trying something "new". Actually something I've been wanting to implement for a loooooooong time: a comment system. There's only one that's up and it's on the DEHR main page. Check it out.
10/30/10 - Stopping by to say that Chapters 7 & 8 were uploaded. Go friggin read em now. ....Why are you still on the main page? GO READ IT, I'M WARNING YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!! ...Fine. Ignoring me. Your loss... arse-hole...
10/22/10 - I know It's been a long time since I've updated. And just so you know this isn't an update. My reason is that father passed away over 2 months ago (8/9/10). Me and my Mom have been trying to pull each other and financially together. Hasn't been easy. I'm still unemployed (I've been since my father passed) but I'm now getting some money to help. Well, getting to the point; it still may be some time where there will be an update. I have Chapters 7 and 8 of DEHR done. I haven't gotten around to posting them. That and I'm planning to make a Music Video in dedication to my Father. This Music video will be a Star Trek video using the song "I'll Follow The Sun" by The Beatles (both came from the 60's ironically). The song was played at my father's funeral, not to mention he was a big Beatles and Star Trek fan who watched the show when the original was first aired. I'm currently been collecting the videos I may require for this and any other music videos regarding the series.
7/22/10 - Must I say it? Updates for that one section again!
7/17/10 - Yet again updates to the fan-fiction section.
7/7/10 - Check out the updates on the fan-fiction section.
7/4/10 - Interesting update. Added an interesting new section called "My Very Helpful Tips" go read them... if you DARE! Muhahaha
7/1/10 - Not really an update but just saying I'm currently working on new chapters for DEHR for you to read. I will say that as something new, I'm adding a back-story during the story. It will occasionally pop-up, but not often. It takes place when John is 13 years old. It also has another new character (just noticed I did that before introducing John's later side-kick) which I will only say her name: Celina. I'm pretty much done withe Chapter 4, so I'm gonna start Chapter 5, which should have something I'm sure looking forward to: action. I hope to make it as realistic as possible. I won't post Chapter 4 until I got it edited by my editors. (You know who you are)
6/21/10 - Added the Links page, but I'm not done yet. I'll finish it up later. Oh, there's an update on the Fan-fiction section. Go check it out.
6-20-2010 - Well, I decided to transfer as much as I can to this new design since it seems to work very well. It's gonna be a long hard road, but I think I can do it. Right now I'm trying to copy all the pages and data of this section to copy of the Fan-Fiction section since this was the original. I still need to figure out how to add the other Parts like the before Mentioned Fan-Fiction section and new Videos section to the navigation bar on the top here. If not, I'll have to add a side bar on the left to have them. Hopefully it won't come to that. I want to make this as clean and sort out as possible. But for now, I'll add links to the Fan-fiction and Video sections under the "About This Site" part below. (I might put it on top as a warning) It may be a while before I transfer everything so the old one will stay standing where it is as my primary site. But there will be little to no updates there for now.
10/10/14 - *ignores fact its been less than a month since the last update*
9/11/14 - Ok first off its obviously been 13 years since 9/11. I
could provide my story on what I was doing 13 years ago today but nahh.
Not this time.
6/7/13
- First off here's to the veterans of war since yesterday was 69th
anniversary of D-Day. Also wish Happy Birthdays to Caitlin and Liz.
Caitlin is my online friend that I met at AB 2012, and she just turned
23 back on the 5th. Today is Liz's 22nd birthday... I want to say
something nice but I can't. That is all.
Okay, with that done I'll just say now: YAY for another update/mention/thing within a month! Anyway minor-ish update to the Fan-Fiction section. I've been going over my Zelda fan-fics and editing/fixing them up. I've already done "Give a Reason" and I am over half-way done with fixing "A Final Tale" up to chapter 16, meaning some more chapter pages here, however the remainder of the chapters will wait till I have them done being fixed. I am doing these fixes and edits for two reasons: 1 to simply fix errors and minor plot holes I've accidentally caused. 2nd; to simply reread the stuff I have done for this series so I can go about on writing and hopefully finishing "I Reach Out a Hand" and then at least start on "Final Memories" so I can bring this Zelda Fan-Fiction series to what I hope will be a satisfying close. I think I have a good amount of workable ideas to finish "I Reach Out a Hand" relatively soon provided this recent mood of writing persists long enough to finish it.
I'm
also considering on heading back to DHR at some point soon but with
finishing up the Zelda series story as my primary focus I really doubt
I'll be getting back to it any time soon. I did however decide to at
least post chapters 1-3 on Fanfiction.net for reading pleasure. However
they have NOT been fixed or updated in any way. I really want to at
least fix up or rewrite the first couple of chapters (namely Chapter 1)
for this story but as I said DHR is on the back-burner until further
notice. I may post more chapters to Fanfiction.net over the course of
time so stay tuned.
Now for more unpleasant news: I lost my job at Marshalls Warehouse shortly after the last update/mention. At least I had enough money to go to Anime Boston that weekend and enjoy it and meet an online friend. Other sad pieces of news would be that my Grandfather died the following day of my losing the job, and more annoying news was that I discovered I wasn't eligible for unemployment benefits! (GRRRRRR!!!) So I am pretty much back to where I was prior to the job except that I have 2 more months of job EXP under my belt to place on job applications.
Anyway, wish me luck on the finding a
job (especially since I want to have enough money to go to AAC in mid
October) and for the fan-fictions. (and hopefully landing a girlfriend
at some point! haha!)
5/21/13 - Wow, been like... 4 months since I lasted posted anything here. Better give anyone who even checks this site a run down of whats been going on. First off the bad news: haven't been writing or really making any videos (I DID make one, will mention under good news). That would explain I haven't updated here in so long. I have been starting to think about my Zelda fan-fiction again, so maybe I might go back to it soon.
The Good news: I finally got a job 2 months ago from
today. I get a decent amount per hour, I work 5 days a week (Sunday -
Thursday) from Midnight to 6 AM (that's 30 hours, so its part time). Its
not a dream job but its something I can do - warehouse work. I
originally got hired with my cousin but thankfully she got fired about 3
weeks. Why is that a good thing? I would have gone crazy with her there
and would have quit. Also AB is around the corner - actually its this
weekend and I am going. I hope to meet some online friends there. I
unfortunately have to take the train in back and forth but at least I
have the money to go. I did make 1 AMV a few months ago but never posted
it anywhere. I was hoping to submit it to AB this year but I felt it
wasn't up-to-par enough for the competition that is always submitted to
AB every year. Right now I am too lazy and tired to make a page for it
on the music videos page so I'll just give you a download.
On another kind of note that I have been keeping secret for the past week or so from both friends and family is that I kinda joined a... *sigh* Otaku dating site. It was a spirr of the moment decision but it has been something I have been considering for a while now. I haven't met anyone yet (I did get a reply from someone today though) but so far nothing promising. If you wish you can check out my profile on the site here. (also gonna put it in my related sites list)
1/4/2013 - Happy [late] New Year! First of explanation on WHY I neglected to finish my Xmas playlist; My friends came over for a few days for my "Doomsday Party" so I kinda forgot. I kept forgetting to do it, then to top it off I caught the flu just before New Year's Eve and I've been sick since. I'm still recovering. I decided that I should at least fix the site. Well that's it for now. Until next time!
12/16/12 - I won't be home the next couple days and won't be able to
update the songs for tomorrow and the day after, so I'm having a friend
do it for me. The songs are already listed so he knows what to play on
each day.
12/2/12 - Sorry for the late post on the song.
Since its noon right now (EST) I'll just update around this time instead
of Midnight from now on. I forget I go to bed earlier in Winter cause
its so friggin cold!
12/1/12 - Decided I will try again at
playing Christmas Music again this year. I've done a tad more this year
as you can already see. Most notably is the change to the red color bar;
it now being green for the holidays. The section that will have the
"Holiday Updates" will be in red to compliment the Green bar. (Oh that
Green bar is present on all pages) Also as usual for the Main Page I got
some snow fall going. I can't put it on all pages cause I'd have to do
it for each page individually.
Now for those not familiar or
don't remember about my little tradition. I play one Christmas song
each day through out December (I'm actually pushing it to January 1st
this time) along with a little list of what's playing on what day it was
played and to boot the artist of who did the song provided I have that
info.
I am aware this is most likely illegal, but I've yet to get an actual complaint regarding my little music playlist. Probably because either no one cares about me or that I only play a song for one day each and I supply no download link.
11/27/12 - Okay this is not an update to the site but I will make one soon. But I am gonna give a bit of a run-down on what's been going on the past 2 months. First off I didn't finish "A Final Tale" by the originally planned due-date, but I did finish it earlier this month. Currently the only place the finished product is on is FanFiction.net. I want to go over it and fix some stuff before posting the whole kitten-kabootle here and Deviant Art. Not just that but I started another story that takes place in-between "Give A Reason" and "A Final Tale". This story is "I Reach Out a Hand". Again you can find it on Fanfiction.net. One last thing to the deal with the Zelda story; I got a sequel to AFT in the works. I haven't actually started it yet, and I won't till I finish "I Reach Out a Hand", for that this sequel "Final Memories" will be the conclusion to my Zelda Fan-Fiction series. Meaning any Zelda stories I make after it will be unrelated.
Now I have still been battling finding a job and in short it's really fucking
pissing me off. I will spare you all a rambling on how much its pissing
me off, we'll leave it at that. In the personal relationship status has
not changed... much. I'm not saying anymore than that on this subject.
Also I have been busy with other things like moving my room around,
friend dramas, and just busy doing some crap, especially now that
Christmas is coming up. Oh I did finish my Cosplay for the next Anime
Boston even though I haven't mentioned any word regarding the subject
before here. You can view my completed cosplay of Gin from Detective
Conan/Case Closed here.
Well that should be just about everything that's worth mentioning at the moment. I am considering trying again with playing Christmas music on the Main Page again this year as I have been trying to do every year. Well... let's see how that rolls when it comes. I got all week to consider it.
8/21/12 - OK, I took some time to make some updates. For one I uploaded Chapters 7 and 8 of "A Final Tale". Secondly I also made a new story and finished it while away. Its called "Give A Reason" - a Zelda story. Its also a prequel to "A Final Tale". All the chapters are here. I also got off my lazy @$$ and uploaded my three short stories.
Plus as an added bonus to the chapter pages I made a very simple design change to the chapter links. Makes them looks a tad more neat and tidy. I've only done this for the two above stories. When I feel like it I'll do this to DHR as well when I come up with chapter titles for it.
Now until I finish/upload the final chapter of "A Final Tale" I'll very simply just give a countdown in days till my planned release of the final chapter. So from today it is 70 days away. That doesn't sound like a whole lot of time!